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i'm very sad right now and i dunno wat to do to make it go away.  this year i lost a few good friends who i thought would be in my life forever.  i guess they were never that great of friends huh because friends ARE forever?

but there is just ONE person i can't seem to let go of.  he stole my heart. you all know who i'm talking about.  i talk everyone's ears off about him.  i was/am so crazy about him.  but yeah, David Lee, i hope he reads this one day.  i doubt he will tho.

i did everything i knew to do to show him how much i cared about him and i never asked for much in return.  i never asked of anything.  all i wanted was for him to prove to me he felt the same way.  and yet in this whole year of knowing him, i gave him my heart in return for what.  i dunno wat his problem is.  he never explained.  y wouldn't he just fricken talk to me.  that's y guys r dumb.  u never tell a girl how you feel about her and then one day it's too late.  she's not going to wait forever. 

i'm very heartbroken.  i really don't know what to do.  i just want to forget about him but i know i never will. i guess the shoe is on the other foot.  you can't help who you love.  i've met great guys who i know liked me at some point but i didn't feel the same way.  there was never the *spark*.  and when i finally found the spark, it was my turn to know what it felt like to not be loved in return.

oh well, i hate that i'm rambling.  but blogging is the only way i know how to make myself cry so that i can move on.  i think i'm drowning in my own tears.  my chair is already a river full.  i'm just really hurt right now. 

maybe one day he will come across my blog.  i hope that from reading this he will understand that i really did/do like him.  i just wish he knew how to communicate his feelings back to me.  i hate that i'm not strong enough to wait for him to come around.  but that may be a long time coming if ever.  the only thing i know to do is to let him go.  move on with my life.  and hope that one day i will meet the perfect guy for me.  who will love me the way i want and need to be loved.  funny how even through a broken heart i try to be optimistic that my time will come.

On October 24th, I will be taking an amazing journey in the fight against breast cancer by walking in the Atlanta Breast Cancer 3-Day event. The Breast Cancer 3-Day is a 60-mile walk over the course of three days.

Please consider making a donation to help me reach my fundraising goal of $2,200, so that I can take on this incredible challenge to help end breast cancer. The net proceeds benefit Susan G. Komen for the Cure and National Philanthropic Trust, funding important breast cancer research, education, screening, and treatment.

Thank you so much for your time and consideration! And remember, everyone deserves a lifetime!

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